What do you believe in?

My dad's friend Louise has a little boy named Elijah and he's 3 years old. Well they were at the Laundromat and they were making small talk with a woman also doing her laundry. Elijah just stood their and listened and then all of a sudden he put his finger on her belly and said "You have a baby in there!" The woman just about died because there was no way someone could tell. She was so early on she hadn't started showing. She put her hands over her eyes and began to cry. She said "I am pregnant, how did he know?" Louise, was just as shocked and asked Elijah "How did you know?" and he said "I just know mama."

I believe that children are closer to God and just know things and pick up on things more so than adults. Their senses are more acute and they have advanced observation skills. So what do you think? What made Elijah come to this conclusion with no obvious signs? Can it be explained?

Year One...is dumb!

Don't waste your money. Wait till it comes out on HBO when it's free and you can catch it half way through because you won't be missing much. And that's all I'm devoting to it.

Father's day was nice, got Riley a Bikini Top for his Jeep and I gave my dad some cash for his trip to Dallas. My mom made everyone's favorite...tostadas and other than that we had a very nice, quiet Sunday.

So Riley and I are seriously thinking about sending Maria to a Montessori school. She is only 5 months old but we're gonna need someone to watch her and we figure the sooner she starts learning, the better. I'm just so nervous about it. We are going to take a tour of the school and meet with the director today. It's expensive but we can cut some things out and I'm sure we can manage.

I entered Maria into Baby Palooza on 100.3 the peak so I need everyone to vote for her. I'll let you know when her voting day is.

Maria slept through the night and it was wonderful but I got so much sleep I'm tired now. Weird

And that's it for today folks, have a good one!

Mom and Dad's New Stage

Retraction to my retraction:

Riley very much cared where Maria went. He was just thinking about, for the moment, getting me to agree on day care and then we would work out the specifics.

So my parents are starting a new stage in their lives, it's called simplifying. They are moving into an RV. The RV is a 28 footer, brand new, and they found a beautiful RV park off of Rio Grande right on the bosque. They are picking up their RV next week and will be moving out of our house. They have been living with us for about three months and they have been really helpful with paying utilities and contributing in so many other ways, not to mention watching Maria when we have to work or want to have a date night. They will be missed but I think it's good for all of us to have our own space. I think the hardest thing for them is not seeing Maria everyday like they do now. And the hardest thing for us is the help with the baby. If I need to shower or just need a minute I won't be able to say "hey mama, can you hold Maria for a little bit." But I think we will all manage, it'll just take some getting used to.

So here's to my mom and dad and their new venture. Good luck and thank you for everything you've done!

Spousal Drama

So This morning in my blog I had more in there than what is currently there. This is what I deleted:

Let me tell you all something before you have children, discuss everything with your significant other. Ensure you're both on the same playing field because if you don't you're going to run into problems.

Riley and I have been going back and forth now, since Maria was born, about jobs and child care options. My stance is, I will not allow Maria to be watched by a stranger, I just won't. She is too little and she needs to be cared for by people I know and trust. I want someone to treat her as their own and not a chore. Riley is of the opinion if I get a job where they don't allow me to have the days off I need or they won't be flexible with my schedule then Maria has to go to a sitter, no if ands or buts. I know Riley is just thinking of options but we've talked about this so much and he continues to bring it up and it really upsets me. I tell him I don't want to talk about this because he already knows how I feel and I know we'll fight about it. If you know me I don't budge when I've decided on something and this is one decision I made long before I had kids.

People have certain philosophies. Some are obvious and some develop over time. This one was obvious, it was like I never knew any other option. I know I may sound stubborn and obnoxious but it's worth it to keep my baby safe. I'm not saying Riley isn't concerned about her safety, he just has other ideas and I respect them I just wish mine were respected.

I apologize for getting so personal in this blog but I'm hoping my husband will read it. If you see that this blog is gone tomorrow or even by this afternoon it's because he asked me to take it down or I had second thoughts about publishing it.

This is my retraction:

I would like to apologize to Riley for being a crazy lady and jumping down his throat (I know he was just thinking about the future and he really likes being prepared for anything), but I would also like him to acknowledge that he only wanted a place, didn't care where, that would watch Maria when we had to work...admit it Riley. But I turned it around and did the "smart Becca thing" (I'm quoting my bff, Morgan), I did research and found two fantastic places to take her to learn and be cared for at the same time. In my head, day care was these little kids crying in the corner and no one there to pick them up and sooth them. So sad right, it made me cry to think about my baby girl in a corner crying for her mama and I'm not there to pick her up and make her feel better, ugh just heart breaking. So anyway my research turned up Springstone Montessori (Carmel Ave. location) and Los Ninos Montessori. If you have a chance look them up online, you'll be impressed.

So this is for Riley...I'm sorry baby, I ya you!!

Maria

So I didn't post yesterday because my little sweety turned into my little grumpy face. She was cranky yesterday. she was screaming at her toys and getting frustrated when I would walk out of a room. Most days she's calm and easy going but she was a typical female yesterday. She just decided it wasn't her day and she wasn't about to act like it was. I think the weather had something to do with it. It was gloomy and just kind of blah. I, on the other hand, was in a great mood. I got to stay home with my baby and we got to sleep a lot. She knows her mama loves to sleep so she cooperates...most days. So Maria has been doing this thing where she is grabbing her toes and sticking them in her mouth...it is so so cute and so fun to watch. She talks to her toes too which is hilarious. I gave birth to a comedian and a smarty pants too because she shouldn't be doing that until she's at least 6 moths old and she'll be 5 months on Sunday.

Baby Food: She loves carrots and apples, she hates bananas and peas...so weird!

Freelance Writing Venture

So my closest friends and family know that my dream job is to be a freelance writer and let me tell you it is a very hard market to crack into but then again I haven't been trying as hard as I should be. I know this because 1. I'm addicted to farm town, 2. I love TV and 3. I'm easily distracted. So I've decided to do a few things; quit farm town, continue watching TV, and focus. Did you notice, I'm not doing anything about my TV addiction? This is because my husband would leave me if I gave up TV or watched less of it. If you know my husband you understand this statement.

So I'm sure you're wondering what exactly have I done to pursue this dream. Truthfully, very little. It's actually only one thing I've done. I posted my resume and service ad on Craig's List. I got one potential hit off of it from a local web design company but I had less experience than the others. The guy told me I would likely get it based on my personality than my work. Is that good or bad? I'm going to say it's good, don't tell me otherwise...I need to stay positive. Oh you know what I just realized...this blog is a step in the right direction. This hones my writing skills and if needed, I have content to send to potential employers.

So now that I've brought my lack of trying to light what steps should I take? Do you have any idea? Do you know of anyone that needs editing/proofreading/Tech writing work? This is basically a cry for help. I'm open to suggestions and criticism...keep the criticism to a minimum...I'm a sensitive soul.